my hands!!

the other day i ran into someone i know and she told me "and not for the first time" that my hands look boyish.. like boys hands.. i thought to myself "what dose that suppose to mean??!!" i mean is it an insult or is it a compliment.. whats wrong with my hands.. i think they look just fine.. for hands!! may be cuze i don't have long nails and stuff.. well.. i like my nails short and natural.. and whats wrong with boys hands (if she meant it as an insult) lost of boys take good care of their hands.. more even than some women does..
all that was going in my head for seconds before i said to her "well.. Thank you" and left her trying not to let my giggles be heard..

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still missing you...

can't wait for our weekly lunch..

past few months..

i had lots of pictures that i took with the enttention of posting them here with certain thoughts in my head.. but since i never got around to doing that in the time i wanted to.. i sort of forgot everything that was in my head.. anyway.. here are some photos...

happy birthday to me!!

rainy day..

my pet fish.. "lived for only 2 days"

no comment :)

my POOH treasure..

happy valentain's everyone, and those non believers.. well we do love you too!!

Don't you just love new beginings.. umm.. actually NO!!

WoW

Radioactive!! in this part of the world!!!!!

miss you

Miss you alot..

and gonna miss you more..

life...

when i first started with his blog.. i thought to myself.. i'll upload every day.. or at least every week.. or if life was going really crazy every month.. by max, every month... well.. it has been 4 months since i last updated..
i have loads of pictures that i wanted to add..
i have millions of words i wanted to write..
millions of thoughts..

but i keep forgetting.... who cares!!!
its not like there are people who wait for my posts and can't wait to read what i write next..
i only do it to get it out there.. and to make the world a li'll more worse than it already is..

that thing..

Sometime ago I wrote that I wanted to write about something for quite some time.. " did that make any sense!!" I needed photo backup for it and now I have that, so there we go.

What is it with guys and car-stickers !! Why some of them like to put all those pictures of "sheikhs" or who ever.. I mean, yeah we do admire a good person and ruler, but do we need to put his face all over the car!!!
Or those who put their favorite football club logos and/or slogans… or silly cartons..
What really is that suppose to mean.. what is the msg it is sending..
Don't get me wrong here, I'm not teasing or trying to make a joke.. I really wanna know and understand!! One might think it’s a childish teenager work, but get shocked when see a middle-aged coming out of such a car..

"note: anyone who dare to refer to may tattooed phone, I'm telling you know.. I do have an excuse .. I'm Psychotic!!"

the first sunset

The first sunset of RAMADAN.. may it be glorious and holy for all of you out there and god bless you all.. :)



Because it came out sort of a sudden for the holy month to start today, last night all networks were jammed with everyone trying so hard to congrat. Everyone they know.. trying so hard not to miss a contact on their phones' address books
I could not help imagining "etisalat" people, though, clinkin' their mugs.. jumping up and down of happiness…….. or perhaps frustration.. :p
Have a great Ramadan you all..

strange..

strange are the things we would do as kids, but never ever think of doing as grown ups.. as i was shopping today i spot a kid.. a big one.. a li'll over 12 i guess.. he was wearing a "superman suit".. i mean com'on... superman!!! in a giant hypermarket!! the funny thing is, he was wearing sandals in his feet.. on top of the socks like part of the suite.. "even as a kid, i don't think i ever did such stupid things".. i think this kid was "over" confidant with himself..


i don't feel like eating at all... not even chocolate.. which mean something seriously is wrong.. me!! not eating chocolate!!..

i had some orange juice in my orange "pooh" cup, which is a li'll strange... i rarely drink juice.. especially in my "kids" "pooh" cup..

i know now how did i lost my way to fantasy land.. how did my imagination shrank.. i think i knew all along i just did not want to admit it.. but somehow now i did..

are you wondering how!! well.. i don't feel like writing this now, besides.. you all now..

Baaghooghaa..

how can some people be so cruel and mean..
how can they rip your heart out and step on it..
how can they forget..
and yet..
be so shameless about it..
how can they!!!!!!!???

*Baaghooghaa= Ba3o'6ah= Mosquito

posted for "spunwithtears" thursday challenge

Science proved it..

Finally, science proved it.. I'm a depressed, sick, psychotic, crazy, maniac, perfection freak with lots of behavioral problems , anxiety, and suicidal thoughts...
DAAAUH!! like i did not know that before..

anyone up for free analysis!!

do you know how you know but you really don't know until you know..!!

republished for (spunwithtears) thursday challange

SunSet..

Do you notice how everything get pale before being dark after the sunset…

Everyday I take the some road home… that long road… from the left it looks like a normal place… houses, trees.. people walking on the side-walks ..
However the right is a different world.. endless desert .. that reach as far as you can see.. and a high-way lights appear lined up with the horizon..
The sun disappear from the sky yet some fading light is still there.. with an orange glow that only adds to its charm..
With this glow, the high-way lights' bars seems to become invisible and all you can see is the bluish orange sky… pale orangey sand dunes…. And small shiny light dots..

I see it almost everyday.. yet everyday is different.. everyday an new sunset..

me and my thoughts..

Don't you just hate that feeling when something or someone gets on to you and you seem to loss your ability to think for a moment… you just go into blank heads world and by the time you snap back out of it you find out that its over… and you have not said a thing.. you were completely helpless in face of this thing, but still yet you can't get it out of your mind and you go hide in your bed but you can't sleep you just toast and turn with a million things in your head.. things you could've said earlier .. you shout at yourself and you blame it for not coming up with all that when it should've…
Dose that feel bad…
Well…
Do you know what feel even worse… when you get annoyed by something or someone and your head give you all the things you should say... and you just stop yourself from saying anything or getting your zingers out …. You say nothing at all … you just smile and hum aha.. because you know if you said them you will just upset more people… and mostly yourself..
But when you have it all in your head, yet you don’t say anything, you hide in your bed and you don't sleep… you just toast and turn shouting and blaming yourself for being stupidly good.. or just blain stupid..

You know what feeling I really hate…. What I really hate is no matter what I do or not do, no matter what I say or don't say.. at the end I'll toast and turn in my bed and blame me for it all… what I really hate is that fact that nothing I do .. I actually like.. or agree with..

Do you think I'm complicated !!!
Do you think I'm going bananas..!!!
Don't you just hate me..

sticky thoughts..

For days now.. for days I've been trying to get that thought out of my mind.. But all I can do is think of it!!
Like old songs that somehow we start humming and we just can't stop.. we keep murmuring it and wondering why we do it…
Don't you just hate it when something like this happens to you.. not the song.. I mean the thought!! It becomes just like a very long sticky strip of a scotch tape that get scrambled on your fingers and you can't seem to get rid of it.. you remove it from one hand just to stick it on the other one!!
Drives you CRAZY, isn't it!!
It kills me..
can someone get me chocolate..

what more is there!!!!

when you lose you..
when you lose everything and "everyone" that reminds you of you..
when you lose the color of life...
what more is there..

i told you before, i suck at being alone!!

i wish i could do something like that, my own Graffiti art piece on the outdoors..

Enter-Emirates roads “highways”

Strange are the things you see driving “being drove” through a high way.. the journey itself I think is pretty interesting.. or maybe I thought that cause I was going with a group.. but sort of with myself.. so I had nothing but me, the music in my ears, and the long road..

I had only 1 hour 15 minutes to cross about 137KM. I left late and hopped I’ll get to my meeting in time driving with a driver that already seems bored of the road..

It’s strange how the roads is sided with lovely.. green.. long trees.. but if you peek in between .. you notice the endless desert.. as far as the horizon.. dark orange.. golden where the sun had burned it most..

Its strange how these dune with dark orange color transform passing by all different shades until it finally get to pale yellow.. sort of creamy white as you get closer to the coastal areas..

Its strange when a car come closer to yours.. and you try not to look, but you can’t help noticing the small.. amazed.. faces.. with stupid or crazy smiles.. staring at you.. making funny faces..((how can such a small car take all these “devils”.. Oops!! I mean “angels” inside it)) you wonder inside you..

Its strange how you pass by a sign that say “ bla.. bla.. bla.. woods” and all you can see around you is a desert and a group of shade less, small, not more than a meter long little poor trees planted in raws.. and the whole thing looks like old doormat..

It’s strange the ad’z you see all the way long.. adz for products I have never heard of.. or for products I know for the first time that they make adz for..

Its strange how Big the signs for those adz are.. yet how “small” are the signs that says: “ la tansa theker allah”

This and that.. here and there .. and I keep watching the road .. moving my eyes every now and then between my watch and the short cornered signs that tells how far you are..

And I finally get there.. on time.. only to discover that the meeting was not worth the while.. however, seeing an old friend make up for it.. and make the trip worth while..

Its strange how you go places and see people.. and suddenly you discover a new face to it.. you discover that, even though you have been throw the road million times.. but for the first time you actually notice the road..

i'm dead !!

I'm dead.. I feel dead.. how can I really say that..
or how can anyone as a matter of fact..
cuz unless I died and came back to life again,
how on earth would I know how "being dead" feels like….

Still yet I keep saying it.. I feel dead.. I am dead..

I guess since death is opposite to life.. dead versus alive.. its ok to say it..
When you lose the essence of life.. when your feelings does not match " alive" anymore.. when you lose the interests the things that make you feel alive..
The only thing that you can think of is the opposite.. the only feeling you recognize.. "you think" you recognize.. is dead..

I feel dead.. I am not alive.. I'm dead..

stupid people are all around..

its hard enough being angry, to add dealing with stupid machines...
its hard enough being angry, to add the feeling that you lost the words that meant your feeling..
the re do is never the same.. we are only humans.. at least i think i am..

Version 1.
i've been wanting to write about something.. its more of a question than it is something i want to say... however, i need some good supportive pic's to put with it.. i did not take them yet.. no time..
there are loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooots of stupid people in the world.. especially mine.. or its just me..i haaaaaaaate those stupid people who think they are allowed to do certain stuff to people, yet no one else is allowed to it.. especially to them... i hate those stupid people who think they know everything there is to know about some stuff, while they actally don't have the first clue about it..i hate myself when i get angry... i'm fine with being upset.. or depressed.. or even in pain... but i hate me when i'm angry.. anger gives me the strength and well to........... kill..
i need to go away.... far far away....

Version 2.
i've been wanting to write about something for quite sometime now.. its more of a question that i want to ask than something i want to say... but i need to take some photos to support my point.. i'll take them soon.. i hope..
there is lot of stupid people in the world..... especially mine.. i hate those people who think its ok for them to do stuff to people, but no one else is allowed to do them, especially to them.. i hate those who think they know all there is to know about certain thing, when they actually don't have the first clue about it... i hate those stupid people who make me angry.. i hate me when i'm angry..i'm fine with being upset... depressed.. or even in pain... but not angry.. i can't handle anger.... anger gives me the strength, and well to....... kill..
i need to get away... far far away..