meetings.. meetings.. and more meetings... like we don't have stuff much more important to finish..
we spend the first half an hour waiting for the chairperson to arrive "how nice" and we spend another half an hour saying our hi's and how do we do's.. then we discover that we only have half an hour left.. cause the room is reserved for an other meeting in half an hour..

pointless..

at some point you realize that everything you say or do is worthless as long as its only you who listen or see.... lately it have only been me..............

Sadness.. Madness..

"The night fall....
a tear crawl.....
down my face....
leading the trace.....
for much.. and more....."


sometimes i feel something or something happen and i react to it... and the words start coming in my head.. i think of saying it to the person that should hear it... or write in here may be it will get through.. but i end up putting all those feelings.. all those words in the little pink notebook.. where no one can get to it... or shall i say where it will get to no one...

Anger..

out of my mind

i wan't to write... i just don't know what to write..
i'm disconnected with me..

In The Memory Of My Beloved Father May He Rest In Peace

Yes he is gone..........
But he is never away..........

It was like if they were talking about me.. everything they said.. every word.. every sense.. it was all me..
At some stage I knew it was it, But.. I questioned my mind.. my thoughts.. could it really be it.. then I thought, it can't be .. its not it.. But now I know for sure… Its it..