republished for (spunwithtears) thursday challange

SunSet..

Do you notice how everything get pale before being dark after the sunset…

Everyday I take the some road home… that long road… from the left it looks like a normal place… houses, trees.. people walking on the side-walks ..
However the right is a different world.. endless desert .. that reach as far as you can see.. and a high-way lights appear lined up with the horizon..
The sun disappear from the sky yet some fading light is still there.. with an orange glow that only adds to its charm..
With this glow, the high-way lights' bars seems to become invisible and all you can see is the bluish orange sky… pale orangey sand dunes…. And small shiny light dots..

I see it almost everyday.. yet everyday is different.. everyday an new sunset..

me and my thoughts..

Don't you just hate that feeling when something or someone gets on to you and you seem to loss your ability to think for a moment… you just go into blank heads world and by the time you snap back out of it you find out that its over… and you have not said a thing.. you were completely helpless in face of this thing, but still yet you can't get it out of your mind and you go hide in your bed but you can't sleep you just toast and turn with a million things in your head.. things you could've said earlier .. you shout at yourself and you blame it for not coming up with all that when it should've…
Dose that feel bad…
Well…
Do you know what feel even worse… when you get annoyed by something or someone and your head give you all the things you should say... and you just stop yourself from saying anything or getting your zingers out …. You say nothing at all … you just smile and hum aha.. because you know if you said them you will just upset more people… and mostly yourself..
But when you have it all in your head, yet you don’t say anything, you hide in your bed and you don't sleep… you just toast and turn shouting and blaming yourself for being stupidly good.. or just blain stupid..

You know what feeling I really hate…. What I really hate is no matter what I do or not do, no matter what I say or don't say.. at the end I'll toast and turn in my bed and blame me for it all… what I really hate is that fact that nothing I do .. I actually like.. or agree with..

Do you think I'm complicated !!!
Do you think I'm going bananas..!!!
Don't you just hate me..

sticky thoughts..

For days now.. for days I've been trying to get that thought out of my mind.. But all I can do is think of it!!
Like old songs that somehow we start humming and we just can't stop.. we keep murmuring it and wondering why we do it…
Don't you just hate it when something like this happens to you.. not the song.. I mean the thought!! It becomes just like a very long sticky strip of a scotch tape that get scrambled on your fingers and you can't seem to get rid of it.. you remove it from one hand just to stick it on the other one!!
Drives you CRAZY, isn't it!!
It kills me..
can someone get me chocolate..

what more is there!!!!

when you lose you..
when you lose everything and "everyone" that reminds you of you..
when you lose the color of life...
what more is there..

i told you before, i suck at being alone!!

i wish i could do something like that, my own Graffiti art piece on the outdoors..