me and my thoughts..

Don't you just hate that feeling when something or someone gets on to you and you seem to loss your ability to think for a moment… you just go into blank heads world and by the time you snap back out of it you find out that its over… and you have not said a thing.. you were completely helpless in face of this thing, but still yet you can't get it out of your mind and you go hide in your bed but you can't sleep you just toast and turn with a million things in your head.. things you could've said earlier .. you shout at yourself and you blame it for not coming up with all that when it should've…
Dose that feel bad…
Well…
Do you know what feel even worse… when you get annoyed by something or someone and your head give you all the things you should say... and you just stop yourself from saying anything or getting your zingers out …. You say nothing at all … you just smile and hum aha.. because you know if you said them you will just upset more people… and mostly yourself..
But when you have it all in your head, yet you don’t say anything, you hide in your bed and you don't sleep… you just toast and turn shouting and blaming yourself for being stupidly good.. or just blain stupid..

You know what feeling I really hate…. What I really hate is no matter what I do or not do, no matter what I say or don't say.. at the end I'll toast and turn in my bed and blame me for it all… what I really hate is that fact that nothing I do .. I actually like.. or agree with..

Do you think I'm complicated !!!
Do you think I'm going bananas..!!!
Don't you just hate me..