chocolate break

busy days.. loads of work.. stuff you do.. stuff you try not do.. stuff you delay as much as possible..
swamped with papers.. notes.. msgs..
do that.. call CEO of gods know what.. send files to hill.. and don't forget your meetings..
i still don't remember how many committees i'm in :S

couldn't they make one for me that say, "pleeeeeeease Do Disturb" , someone please cut my thoughts stream.. someone take me away from here..

my phone got tattoo :)

when i have soooooooooooo much work to do, and deadlines to meet.. i feel like running away and painting.. most creative ideas come when you have no time for creativity.. if i don't seize the moment, it will be gone.. especially that i have a memory of a gold fish..

yes i did sketch on me phone.... yes i am crazy, have you just realized it???!!!

poohweeeeeeezzzz..

i don't want my head.. my brain.. someone please take it.. take it away.. i don't want it.. it mess up everything.. i can't get it to stop... this voice in my head..
i keep thinking and thinking.. non stop.. i wish it would stop..
i'm not smart, so why won't that stupid head stop working..
i don't want to know anything.. do anything.. think of anything..

BUT.. i always forget.. that my wishes NEVER come true..

apologies

i apologize for the mess-spelled nickname " Lonewolf" ... everyone out there... people.. people.. its NOT a capital "w" ok..
dear friend's freind, please do accept the apology, and thank you for agreeing with me, that what i say does not make any sense..

i miss rain..

its not fare that words can be so limited.. so restrained.. they mean what i want to say, but they don't even come close to describe the feeling...
when i say i miss you.. you don't really know how much i miss you.. you don't know how much meaning .. feeling.. that word carry..
its like feeling soooooooooooo sad, yet can't cry.. it hurts.. really hurts..

why everything have became so helpless to what i feel.. words that i say.. things that i write.. tears that i cry.. everything fail to describe what i feel.. have i gone so hard.. or so much..

Thank You..

i liked what you wrote a lot , even though it wasn't what i expected or thought of when i asked you to write.. i thought you would write a crazy nonsense such as the stuff i write.... but i forgot one important fact, which is that you are a perfectly sane normal lovely, very very lovely, smart real person. while i'm in the other hand, ...umm.. lets just say.. coming from a different planet.. and still working my way to be a li'll like you..
i would like to thank you for your lovely contribution it meant the world to me.. you didn't have to write all those nice stuff about me, you could've wrote the truth :P but really really thank you.. thank you for comin here every once and a while to refresh your mind with a li'll of my crap.. i would like to thank all your friends whom also visit here from time to time.. can't keep track of all of'em :P "just teasing" but would like to thank LoneWolf.. the name i hear much often along with my blog in one sentence..

we do have fun together.. lots of it.. if i could take a picture of each and every moment of fun we had and having, i would have my room full of pictures.. up to the sealing..

thats enough about other people, back to me.. remember, thats my blogspot.. mine, me, moi only.. the instant headache that you get as you step into my world.. the feeling that you lost something really important but you just can't remember what.. the itch in your hand to touch something that is forbidden for you to touch.. the sense of fearing death yet so badly wanting it...
Do i make any sense??!! no!! well there you go... moi..

well.. i don't know what to write.. it's just that we had fun yesterday .. we went out and it was really amazing.. i really enjoyed my time with her caz she's wonderful person and one of my best friends :)

Yours
FtOoOny

what sadness brings rain

where did i hear that.. i'm sure its not mine.. even though i would've loved for it to be mine..
i'm sure if i squeezed my brain to the last drop of memory i will remember where have i read it.. but i don't have the strength to do that now..

strange feelings i have about rain... i don't remember having them before.. why do i have them now!! i don't know...

Have something happened for me in a rainy day that made me have special feelings for rain!! i don't know....

all i know is that i miss rain so much.. and i almost fly of happiness when it rains..

it did rain today.. light drops... i thought may be cause i mentioned it so much it actually visited me.. i walked in the rain.. bare foot.. in my summer pj's.. feeling the cold breeze.. the small droplets of rain on my face.. on my lips.. such a sweet taste..

i had to go inside eventually.. and the rain stopped.. but i still hope it will visit again.. may be tonight.. may be tomorrow morning.. i still hope it will..

sometimes i really do believe that my crazy thoughts does bring rain.. my sad thought.. my mad thoughts..